scars

the old scars quiver and burn tonight.
at a touch they remember.
they remember all i try to forget.
i could shelter and cradle and guard these old wounds.
protect myself from the pain of memory.
but the effort would cripple me.
and never let me use these limbs.
the muscles would atrophy.
the bones would weaken.
the pain would be less.
but the injury far greater.
yet if i use these limbs.
and risk the pain.
the scars may in time fade.
maybe.
but tonight,
they won't let me forget.

love

i don't love her because i want to be with her
i want to be with her because i love her

i don't want a deeper relationship so that she'll be my friend, girlfriend, or wife
i want her to be my friend, girlfriend, or wife so we'll have a deeper relationship

i don't love her because she's given me some reason to hope
i have hope for these things only because i love her

the love is first
Love is always first
He's the only reason i have
He's the only reason for any true love

Lord, keep me true to love
don't let the pain turn me in upon myself